Hi Quynh

Today my results too came and I have performed so bad, like a shit. Things and situations here in my life are not going well. When my parents have seen the results, they neither yelled at me nor they have beaten me up but they simply aren't talking to me. I am unable to make eye contact with them or confront them. I have not sobbed but somehow from the bottom of my heart, I guess, I deserved this. I haven't been serious during my prep days, not the least. It was in the past few months that I have been a little more attentive and dedicated. I don't know what to do but yeah even I don't want to give up. I guess right now I just want someone who would listen to all my rants, I want to cry, I want a shoulder, I want someone who would say Don't worry things will be all right.. It happens to all of us. When we are not giving our best when we just want to give up. In that hour of despondency, how your mind is full of shit and crap things. Fucking thoughts. I want my partner here. My strength, my life. That's it.

I know you have written long back, 5 months back. I even don't know whether someday you would be reading my message or not but still, even if to date you are feeling depressed and despondent then you can call me, message me, Whatsapp me, anything which suits you. Which makes you feel comfortable. Anything. I am here and I would love to talk to you.

As for now I just want to say Things are never as bad as they seem.

Lots of love, care and strength my friend

-Vanee